Toxic

Just carry away this f*****g pain, internal darkness, a struggle each day, it's far too late to be called sane, why is my mind so torn? The emptiness is all but lies, evil thoughts that just won't die, is this all because of I? Torment eats my soul. The memories of days gone by, gained and lost to wonder "Why?", were they real or just a lie? I don't even know. It's not so fun to be crazy, paranoia and OCD, trying to live but not sure how to be, in control of my own mind.