There You AreA Poem by MrJemsThere you are You, whose soft lips forced a smile when I smiled so sincerely, You, who didn't push me away but rather,
shoved me with the cold shoulder I had grown to lean on. You, who had accepted my heart with open
arms but closed fists,. You, who drove me to the brink of
madness but then had the audacity to make me question my own sanity, You, who tied the laces of the size 5's
I paid for, left a size 15 boot print on my chest where my self-respect once
was and screamed without saying a god damn word from those soft lips. This! Is! Not working... And I see that now. It was irrational for me to dream of
building something when I was negotiating with dynamite. I guess that’s why they're called
dreams. Now, here I am, your picture in my wallet,
my picture in your past. Me, anxiety breathing down my neck as it
whispers 'man up', Me, lost, melting in the toxicity of
your eyes until i felt worthless when I looked into my own, Me, constantly tripping over myself, not
because you blinded my sight but because I had rather wallow in a rain of
self-pity then even bother trying to open up an umbrella and keep moving. Me, finally stopping myself and asking,
'Why am I the one grieving, when you're the one who gave up?' I may be weak, broken even. But I still dream that maybe one day me, who now wears your forced smile,
smiles sincerely once more at the pieces you so willingly dropped, And you, in some bullshit other place,
realising that maybe you were right when you took my hand for the last time and
from those soft lips whispered 'It’s not you, it’s me' © 2014 MrJems |
Know That I Too
We are never alone (a poem for mental health month) Stats
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