This Dreadful Anniversary

9/20/2011 One year to the day... My cousin, David, died early this morning. Everyday I miss you just a little bit more. I wish you could have seen how much we loved you while u were still with us.

Three hundred

sixty five days

And this is not getting easier

I know you're still my angel

Right there by my side

But it hurts you're so far away

I still remember our last hug

Like it was just yesterday

I still hear your voice

Like I did on Christmas Eve

And I still feel so lost

Confused 

In pain

Still Hurting

Why?

It's not like you to walk away

With a job only half done

It's not like you to leave me

When you know I needed you

It's not like you...

I cannot understand your pain

I cannot comprehend the hurt

I cannot feel the desperation

I just feel the loss

The loss of a beautiful heart

A beautiful man

An amazing friend

I miss you David

Three hundred

sixty five days

And this is not getting easier.