Let Me Explain It How I Fill It

Footsteps fading to gray

Your lover catching a plane

Love burning out like a flame

And words of a dreamer

Echoing back as clear as a mirror

But the dreamer has died

Only those echoes keep it alive

But the echoes too now lie

And even the mirror had lied about more than the dreamer's eyes

He sits and he stares

Because it all seems hopeless to try to convey 

The difference in remembering and living 

Remembering how it was to live

But realizing now it was nothing but dreaming

Waking up is the nightmare 

�"When it's your own whispers inside of your ear

But dreaming again sounds more of a scare

So he stays awake to stay aware 

Keeping himself from returning back there

But always wishing that there was a place to find here

Turning around, the road meanders up cliffs and down

Looking ahead, the path is bare and lonely

Having chosen to walk 

Where each step is clear and empty of rocks

But even the smooth stones are gone

Forever alone you can hear him singing these songs 

And reminding himself he was always a world to his own

And so he goes on 

Telling himself the hope was always gone

There's no hope when your world is a permanent statue 

Which cannot be broken

Which cannot be eroded

The dreamer of longevity has found this place open

But open is something which cannot be filled

This instant lasting for longer than forever has or will

This one sided mirror comes along for the ride

And so does the hope that he can make it outside

But outside is only a place of more empty faces

Faking themselves that together is where they have made it

This one sided glass is the hope we hold onto

And we hope that it's more than just see through, too

This dreamer has died

His mirror now dark he's turned off the light

And he writes these words for a self he will never unite

But just for a moment the nightmare is gone

Holding his breath and hoping it won't be too long

He repeats this old song and the dream pulls him on

Author's Note

Just written to ease my own troubled mind.