Confiding in a friend

Confiding in a friend

A Poem by Nialligimino

Help Me.

I cannot find the words to tell you
and I don't know what to do -
this is hard for me, so please
give me time.

Relax.

Let your guard down
and allow me to see
what it is that you hide - 
       release the pain, let it free.

I want to break down these walls
that you've used to disguise
your true inner self -
      hidden with lies.

If you keep it all in 
it will destroy you -
      eat you and gnaw you.

Let it go
Set it free
You have to share this with someone - 
     please let that someone be me.

I don't want to hold your hand
I just want you to understand
that I know what you feel and I can...

help you.


It began with anger
and became regret.
I never knew how
bad it would get.

It morphed into something worse
and I ended up depressed -
my inner monologue became a curse
and I mentally regressed.

As the days went by
I'll admit I mostly slept,
but as the nights were nigh
I just simply wept.

It felt like it would never end
I was a complete and utter mess.
...But now you don't have to pretend
and it's my turn to 'fess.

I've been where you were then
and I should be where you are now.
It hurts me to find these feelings again
especially in one so proud.

The emotions you've described
and the actions you have taken
are ones I was once supplied
when I became very much mistaken.

I used to write a lot
to get my feelings down,
but sleep deprived is what I got
with inspiration all around.

I used to write some lyrics too
you can see them if you like...
I just want to hug you,
but my tears would escape their dyke.

It's a good job I'm not there then -
or there'd be a teary mess.
I can't believe you've been there - when?
...I never would have guessed.

I'm happy that I've told you
and that we're once more close,
but I also want to hold you
for your sake...ghost.

© 2013 Nialligimino


Author's Note

Nialligimino
Well, I certainly didn't it ending where it did! When I got to the end I had to change the line "and I should be where you are now." from "and I've been where you are now" so that should tell you where I was aiming - B5...miss!

Feedback is greatly appreciated - it is conversational so a bit of an experiment for me and I hope you can keep track of it.

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I'm happy that I've told you
and that we're once more close,
but I also want to hold you
for your sake...ghost.

You are a champ in writing my friend, first thing. Secondly I like to read people to want to convey message rather then just sitting and cursing their ex. No offense to them but you my friend I will follow every work of you. I sense a great wit and genius in you now all we need is keep you on track:)

Posted 5 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

A. Amos

5 Years Ago

i can sense it my friend and must be one special soul, see still we are discussing her
Nialligimino

5 Years Ago

Touché. Well played.
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This is a brilliant write I like the sincerity and truthfulness of the words.A friend in need is a friend in deed. We see who really true friends are when we find ourselves between rock and hard place.

Posted 5 Years Ago


I'm happy that I've told you
and that we're once more close,
but I also want to hold you
for your sake...ghost.

You are a champ in writing my friend, first thing. Secondly I like to read people to want to convey message rather then just sitting and cursing their ex. No offense to them but you my friend I will follow every work of you. I sense a great wit and genius in you now all we need is keep you on track:)

Posted 5 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

A. Amos

5 Years Ago

i can sense it my friend and must be one special soul, see still we are discussing her
Nialligimino

5 Years Ago

Touché. Well played.
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I guess at least 50 percent of the human populations has been here at one point. I enjoyed this piece. If it was an experiment, I hope you were satisfied with the result, because it's pure brilliance!
Loved it, keep up the great work :)

Posted 5 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Nialligimino

5 Years Ago

It was an experiment and I'm definitely please with how it turned out and the way in which it has be.. read more
"If you keep it all in
it will destroy you -
eat you and gnaw you."

Great job.




Mike



Posted 6 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Nialligimino

6 Years Ago

Thanks Mike. Glad you liked it.
I don't believe ive ever cried so much while reading something, this is just so relevant to me right now, I can relate so much, and so can anyone else going through a hard time and speaking with a friend. im really glad you entered this...I just love it so much

Posted 6 Years Ago


this is really gorgeous, I loved the conversational character of your poem. I could totally feel the emotions in this one, great stroy, really enjoyed it :)

Posted 6 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Nialligimino

6 Years Ago

Thank you very much. Glad you enjoyed it.
annabellee

6 Years Ago

you're most welcome :)
Damn. You've actually left me so speechless I really don't know what to say.
All I'll say is that my chest is welling up with emotions and my eyes are starting to tear. Well done, well done

Posted 6 Years Ago


1 of 1 people found this review constructive.

Nialligimino

6 Years Ago

I'm sure whether to say "Thank You" or "Sorry"! Haha. Certainly not the reaction I was expecting whe.. read more
Infinity Blues

6 Years Ago

Haha, my bad, my review was all intended with positivity in it.
Thats what got me, there was .. read more
Nialligimino

6 Years Ago

I realise that it was positive, but not everyone wants to be made to feel like that. It wasn't easy .. read more

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Last Updated on June 11, 2013
Tags: Depression, Suicide, Anxiety, Friend, Friendship, Pain, Sorrow, Death, Anger, Regret, Emotions, Sadness, Dark

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Nialligimino

SW, United Kingdom



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