Hidden Love

For a contest.

Watching him laugh away,
I’m wondering why I’m at
This masquerade, wondering

If it was a sign for me to see

His mask for what it was underneath?

 

I met him long ago,

When I was young and naïve;

Eighteen at the least.

I instantly fell in love with him

For his charming smile

And how he was so suave

When we first had met.

Maybe it was just infatuation,
A bittersweet lust that

I didn’t care to taste at first.
But at that moment, I didn’t care.

All I wanted was for somebody to love

And for him to see my true mask as well.

 

When we spoke, he treated me
With respect, with a tenderness

That I hadn’t seen with a man before.
It was as though he knew to be gentle

With my strong, beating heart.

 

Yet maybe I was so blinded by love
That I didn’t see that he treated me

Just a friend, not like a lover would

When he wanted the woman of his dreams.

He comforted me and let me speak to him
When I had nightmares, and his gentle

Sky blue eyes held my eyes with care.

His whispers to calm me down

Was like honey to my hears,

Telling me his worries and his
Thoughts like as though it was just more.

 

Yet now at the age of twenty one,

Almost twenty two, I realize that
I was only chasing distant love,

And that he had found his perfect rose.

So now I bath in the milky moonlight,
The stars being a shimmering comfort

While the wind gently weeps with my tears.

This mask isn’t going to hide my feelings,
But it will hide my face so nobody

Would be able to see my broken hearted tears.

 

I love you, I love you.

But I’m glad for you.

You found true love

With somebody else worthwhile.  

Author's Note

I'm wondering if I should change how I did the ending?
The woman in this poem is not angry at the man in the poem, but
mostly just angry by the fact that she was in love with someone who
thought of her as a friend and not much else.

Reviews

[KingArt]

I am a fan of this write. It read beautifully. As far as the end goes, I wouldn't change it. The "I love you" in red shows both passion and fury; very creative. But the ending shows the heart of the woman. Excellent write!

[Wicahpi]

Emotions are so confusing, sometimes, when we are young.
An emotional write...which shows that confusion well, I think.
Thanks for entering it in my contest.