Catharsis

On taking out in paper what's on the mind..or was it?

No, I'm tired of fame and publicity tonight.
After all, I have to return
Return to the cold, lifeless form
Shell life of a fragile jellyfish
The seas have promised me nothing
They have taken away my niche.

When sea horses play in water
They forget to see the fish around
Encircling them
Giving them water and small elliptical flows.
Busy they are, with their game.

Life's best decisions are never undone
Ctrl+Z is not a option.

Bad, obnoxious odor of good tasting tea
Never leaves the mouth
I have brushed but I haven't really brushed
Hair has grown from my past
Past my neck and my broad shoulders
Jackets are short, they never cover the cold
Brown T-shirts always lurk out.

You can ban torrents
But can you ban the spirit of movie-watcher
Whether it's porn or a good old movie
Internet will be taxed and I will oversee.

Even if you sit on the terrace
Even if you stare at the sun
The rooms are always numb
Cold, damp air
Alien's presence everywhere.

Sometimes even piss and s**t is disgusting
The cold water trickle my a*s
And numb my bare fingers
And bathrooms don't get dry
At least no sooner.

I remember and I remember
I can't reshuffle
Hazy priorities have undone me
And so have the winter.

Please show the way to a sunny morning
For corn fields do the wait
I need to take a shower which really cleans me up
And I need to breathe again, fresh air.

Claustrophobic with excessive people
As privacy diminishes with time
Vanishing souls do increase privacy
But at what cost, O dear mine?

So sun won't shine at the dingy little corner
Dirty mosses will grow
My mind and body's a retarded soul
Please leave me and let me go.

Goodbye frustration
Goodbye tiredness
Goodbye overfeeding
Goodbye me and my f***** up soul.


© Nothing Personal. January 13, 2011.

Author's Note

"And thus he felt helpless, and thus he found no solution and thus he found no way to change his destiny "

Reviews

[Art]

the questions...the solutions...oh the reality...such is the ever seeking mind of ...well maybe not ever...just a Soul reaching to discover...all is the wind following its own and everyones ...finality...

exceptional work my friend...makes me wanna escape...


well maybe...

[Just Cat]

A deep piece to write. Even in tough times, we must fight on, even in the darkest of times there always a glimmer of hope, no matter how small.
Nicely written :)

[Meghan Rose]

i love how you hold nothing back, it really helps you strike a powerful truth in the end, i hope this man "changes his destiny"

[Siddhartha]

It's a very poignant poem indeed...Eloquent about man's need for privacy and solitude but then being unable to let go of the familiar faces and their idle chatter...There's also that strong undercurrent of the perils of fame and fortune...A wonderful write..

P.S.-Some typographical mistakes which I think I should point out;
1."Ctrl+Z is not a option" should instead be "Ctrl+Z is not an option".
2."The cold water trickle my a*s" should instead be "The cold water trickles my a*s".
Of course I am no authority on English and might be wrong or there might be some overriding reason which I might have overlooked.

[Calypso]

Nice and well written.

[Sarusai Hiryu]

interesting, and as brutally crude as always

[SarahCortland]

i like this its very interesting :)

[.]

. ah ... it's a long walk home, my friend ... for me, it's kalahandi ... and it's still so far away ... but we've got to get there ... no matter how tough the journey ... and no matter how thankless each day might seem ... an absolutely beautiful poem ... soulful and heartfelt ... and magical in streams of thoughts expressed ...

[Emily B]

I'm going walking in the snow later, you come, too, maybe we'll find that sunny morning :)

[Undying Glory]

this was very intriguing work, i sure love this one! you're right about that part about undoing actions, there have been so many times i've wished that i could just press an "Undo" or "Reset" button in my life! i just love this write! great job!