I finally understand

When you feel like the world has let you down
Let it go
When you have so much pain in your heart
Don’t let it show
Ive been that girl
That felt all alone
But now im that girl
That can
Stand on her own
Cuz everytime I tried to leave
My feet said no
And everytime I said im leaving
You said go
I wasted so many tears
On the floor
And I wasted so many tears
On my clothes
Bad boys aint no good
And the good girls aint no fun
I had to separate myself
To see what ive become
Ive turned my life around
From 3 to just one
I was tryna hard to please you
But forgot the pain I was running from
My whole life was based
On making others happy
My whole was life was based
On having a life with my daddy
I had so many friends
But I now I don’t have none
I forgave all them folks
But im really left with one
God didn’t let me down
He told me I had to run
If I didn’t run
I had to jump
Either way I gotta move on
He made me learn everything
From the hard way
And everyday
In every way
I give him all my praise
He showed me so much evil
In this world
He showed me that im not a little girl
I had to pick up my pieces
And put them back together
This time with no help
And this time
It felt better
I was so busy tryna fix
His and her life
That I didn’t care about me
I didn’t care about
Doing right
How could you lose love for someone over a day
How do you gain trust in someone
In different ways
Its not possible
Not for me
Its been 2 years
Going on 3
I couldn’t walk away from you
But you walked away from me
I kept going back to you
You didn’t come after me
So I did what I had to do
So I wouldn’t have to cry
I wouldn’t have to die
I wouldn’t have to sit
And here your stupid lies
Yall played me like a fool
The feeling is too strong
But god is blessing me
Even if ive done wrong
He see that im tryna change
He said what I had become
A monster in disguise
But a broken hearted woman
But its ok I dried my eyes
And I finally seen the light
That was hanging over me for dear life
I wasn’t looking up
I was looking down
I wasn’t smiling
I wore a frown
But im done with the misery
Maybe one day you will miss me
Maybe one day you will text me
And say
Im sorry
Maybe one day
You will see
I wasn’t perfect
I was human
I wanted to believe you
But you just kept on bruising
Its ok
I understand
And that’s all I can say
I thought it was me at first
But it was me that made me stay
I wasn’t stupid for you
I just felt that you would change
But I had to learn
You cant make the sun shine on a rainy day
So goodbye to cupid
And goodbye to friendships
Im too scared to be hurt
So im just gone end this
Cuz at the end of the day
Theres no such thing
As loving without caring
And at the end of the day
There is no such thing
As eating and sharing