Free Me

i havent forgiven u...i just dont know how to talk about it and so i pretend everything is fine. but my mind goes back every second of the day and i fight back the tears.

i know we shud talk...i know its the smart thing to do but i cant bring myself to deal with u. i wanted to say deal with the stress but i realise both of u are one and the same. i cant live like this. i will not allow myself to be afraid of u and i think its maybe time i stop being sad. but wen i start to think like this i begin to feel guilty and then i get angry at myself immediately for i know there's nothing for me to be guilty about.

i have it all bottled up, this anger. its become my friend, almost. its a friend i try to ditch everyday but everytime i try to get rid of it it seems to stick closer to me. maybe honesty is what i need to free me from this bond...honesty with myself most of all but honesty with u as well...i know u dont know how i feel - not totally anyway.

Reviews

[Qwashi]

i dont, i want to, i must, but i see, i cant, i will, maybe i cant see, im sick, ill try? you see, i not ok, you are, why? we must, you are, i know, i think? am i, will we, your beautiful, im ugly, i think? can we, should i........................................................please dont

[luthien7]

Amazingly complex emotions here, this is excellent. You do a great job of describing these feelings, and giving a sense of the confusion and frustration dealing with and trying to understand those feelings. I don't think people are in general this honest with themselves.

Excellent read. thanks for the opportunity.