Little Ball of Anguish and Chaos

I had all but happiness on my mind, a little ball of anguish and chaos, you might call it

Such a cloudy day, I appeared more pale than usual

I wore my crown with pride, for I was unaware of anything that surrounded me that morn

A lonely beaten path I found myself venturing upon

Cloaked in silence, unaccompanied

Until I saw you

My tunnel-like vision suddenly came into focus upon the sensing of another body

A man, a man who asked me directions, all while I was too distracted watching his mouth movements

He had taken a wrong turn and was heading for the same place I was

He joined me and I accepted happily

He told me about his life, places he had been and still aspired to visit

I watched the leaves on the trees dance with the wind

I told him about my passions 

We decided to visit a nearby field to watch the clouds and get caught up in the wind. 

We lay there, looking up at the fluffy wads of cottony white 

He turned to face me almost instantly

I waited, I was unsure if he was studying the curves of by body, the marks on my flesh, or the way my hair moved with the wind

I soon after turned to him.

I tried to memorize every detail of his face, I wanted to remember it when we parted ways

His face was alive with excitement, I can only feel sorry that he had to look at mine

With lips slightly parted, vacant empty eyes peered back. 

It felt like he had appeared and disappeared so quickly in that hour spent in the grass

He left, he could find his way

I still lay here in the field, realizing that I have fallen off of the already beaten path

I watched the cloud shapes change, I envyed the beauty of it all

I curled up into a ball, pleading for natures blankets to smother me

It was all so empty, the field

I could be melted into the earth and been perfectly fine 

Blanket the aching, smother the anguish

Reviews

[Echoes of Eros]

A world of such agonizing beauty and desire. Your words reveal the depth of you, gazing out into the atmosphere around you, this life that crossed paths with yours, and the wonder of being lost in these moments with a stranger; obviously a very lucky stranger to have even seconds of your sweet time. xo