I Cry

Not great but had to get it out a few days ago

I cry for the pain that you have caused
I cry for the hurt that I feel
I cry for the sadness that threatens to overwhelm me and
I cry for the happiness that I used to feel
I cry for what you have done to me
I cry for the love that was never there
I cry for the shame I feel and
I cry for the paranoia that hits me while I'm driving down the road or standing inside of my garage
I cry for the fear that has been instilled in me
I cry for the wrong that you have done and the mistakes that I have made in response
I cry for the self blame that creeps up on me
I cry for all the s**t that I'm having to go through thanks to you
I cry for what I always dreamed of and
I cry for the nightmares that have appeared
I cry for the trust I can't quite grasp
I cry for the walls that need reinforcing and
I cry for the woman that I don't think I will ever be.

Author's Note

I know it's not great but it's honest.