Torture

You're no good for me anymore, so why do I want you so bad?

I torture myself by looking at you and remembering the smiles, the laughs, & the treasured moments
Wishing things were different, wishing we were both different, knowing the end is here, but hating every moment of it
Was three months of endless torture, jabs, & comments not enough?

My heart yearns for you once more, but my soul knows it was not enough
Somewhere along the path we lost our way, our love turned into endless anger, hurt, and pain
The encouragement and the laughter turned to blame, so the tears came and the self hatred and self doubt took control over me
Why was I no longer enough?

Your heart was on lock-down and my mind was taken over by it
Neither of us were good for the other anymore
We both knew it was coming and you fought, I ran, we couldn't take it 
Somewhere along the way you lost me, I lost you, and we couldn't find the other, no matter how hard we tried.

You said you were better off alone, and you stopped fighting for me, so I started fighting back at you 
Neither of us could find that happiness we once had, your kiss still sent electric shocks through me, but your words overshadowed that as the anger took control
Hating you, hating me, hating us, I reached my breaking point with a, "F**k you."