Ugly Days

Poetry is so contrived

Written in sad-soaked lines

Dripping with salt water

Risen from the ocean

And saturated in bloody agony

But there’s no other way

To let your lover know

Or your mother

There’s no better phrasing

Then to say exactly what you don’t mean

So when you look at me

And our eyes meet

I am spinning lines

About the blue and hazel

And the dagger you thrusted in my skin

Flesh falls from the bone

As tears cut lines down my saddened face

Smoke fills my lungs and your mind

The nausea that you cause my bleeding heart

Will fill my fingers with toxic words

Each letter written kills me more

And augments your quota

For damsels in distress

Did you plan this all out

Or was the love between us temporary spontaneity

I am a wreck

And you are a mess

So when we touch it's like a hurricane

But unlike a storm

We seem to bring each other together

In the worst, most beautiful ways

Apprehension and desire kill me

And when you kiss me the way you do

I want to hate you even more

But when the heat cools down

Like lava the obsidian of my soul is love

Jagged edges and broken bits

Never fit together or soothe bleeding skin

And your presence is salt to my burns

The pleasure is overwhelming and I yearn for so much more

But every time you stay I break

And the razors of your words slip to cut away the scar tissue

Confusing and so angry

I want to scream and hit

Your hardened walls and loud mouth

With all the passion you have risen

So when I lay on the floor in silence

Know that I am so in love with you

Vexed and quite perplexed

You pull me in as I push away

A downward spiral to euphoria is my trip

And damn those fingers pressed firmly into my hips

You’re a monster with sick pleasure in making me smile

You push away as I come close

And build me up when you leave me alone

The fear of being together is intense

But I take the life from your breath

And give you nothing in return

Sometimes we have to say

What we don’t mean

To be truly understood by those who matter

So I love you even when you’re gone

And when you’re here, nothing could touch me

I will fight for this forever

I will wait here forever

I will love you forever

I love you

I love you

I love you

Author's Note

It's not my best work, and it certainly needs refining, but I like it (for the most part). I hope you do too.