AN EXPLANATION TO PLEASE UBDERSTAND

A Poem by Pasky

second part to a poem that should have been really the first part

he kissed me
i was half drunk
but then he kissed her too
that's when i started to sober up
he tried i with me
but i didn't give
didn't he know
no matter how dazed
and confused i was,
i would NEVER give in
but then he tried it with her
she who had no where been as drunk as me
but she was the one who gave in
and gladly she did
wantingly she did
he took her right there
in front of me
me who was half drunk
and starting to sober up

i saw him and her
in a daze
in a fog
i wasn't sure at first
confused at first
was i dreaming
was i high...some how

i saw evey thrust
heard every sound,
right next to me
right beside me
on the bed
right next to me

i feel asleep
for a minute
maybe two
i woke
sober
they were gone
together
in a tub

the anger
the hate
the agony

murder
i wanted to
murder
murder them

his dog was there
at my feet
as i got up
i could have
i could have strangled it
the dog
i wanted to hurt someone
something
wanted someone to know
to feel what i felt at that moment

humiliated
deceived
embarassed
a rage in me

then self hated
i deserved it after all,
i should have made my feelings for him more clear
i brought it on myself

but its surprising,
how quick i sobered up
it still amazes
how watching something like that could wake me from such a daze
the power of the mind is amazing

had there been a fire
i wouldn't have sobered up
only that kind of deceit
could sober up even the drunkards in the allies