The Longing and the Pain

Only one person in your life will honestly make you feel true love.

The Longing and the Pain

I long to be reunited with her being

for she was indeed, without doubt,

the love of my life.

My sad Norwegian.

My beautiful, intelligent indulgence.

My companion and perfect lover.

I soaked my soul in all of her,

absorbed her through my skin

until she was in every molecule,

in every single cell of me.

I lived for each moment

I spent with her.

Her smile captured my heart,

her lips made me weaker than

I have ever been in my whole life,

unable to resist.

Her voice was as a summer breeze,

cool and calming,

as it softly caressed my desire.

When our bodies touched

I felt heaven call to me

and urge me to her bidding.

And when our climax reached

subsidence I heard the whisper

of angels and felt the joy

of true giving,

and I was complete.

Now I am a dying man,

withering from the pain

of regret and loss.

Now I am a mere shadow

destined to forever feel the sadness

of my one true love denied.

 

02/06/15

Reviews

[....................]

brutal how we have nothing to offer after losing our complete investment in love... it doesn't matter how long we go, the haunts of that one true love denied are forever... heavy, John

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Heavy but true FT. Thank you.

[Dara]

This really touches my heart. To feel that kind of love only to lose it can be devastating. To fill that space is almost impossible but most of us would not have changed it for the world. Your poem expresses this so beautifully.

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Thank you Dara, your review has brought me to the verge of tears in its empathetic energy.

[Dara]

Only time can heal a broken heart and then open it to love again. Your heart is very deserving of this, to be sure!

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Thank you. I am resilient and have recovered from many ups and downs but this one has knocked me side ways.

[Sami Khalil]

Bittersweet with gain and loss, hope and regret. Denial of happiness is hard indeed. Thank you for sharing your heart and soul...:)..................

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Mainly loss I am afraid in this case. Thank you for reading Sami

[Sami Khalil]

Yep. You are welcome...:).................

[Kelly Scheppers]

You don't strike me as a man who would throw the towel in... under any circumstance! There's always hope, my dear!

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Sweet Kelly you are of course right and I have weathered a few storms but as I said to Jacob this has been different. I have not been with anyone since this relationship ended a year and a half ago. I have tried to stop the haunting and cannot explain why it persists. I have told our story on WC in several pieces over the years. Thank you for your sensitive review.

[jacob erin-cilberto]

beautiful and sad...i have a past love to whom i could attach these words...you said them for me with such grace...

[John Alexander McFadyen]

I guess many of us have experienced such loss. I have had several break ups but this one left me stunned and bereft even eighteen months later. Many thanks for relating in empathy Jacob.

[Robert]

John, this is truly a heart felt piece you have written. With tat said it is a very good poem and must are when they come from the heart. You expressed you emotions with very considerate word selection. It flowed well from beginning to end. I certainly hope each day is better with you.

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Thank you Robert for such a considerate review.

[Robert]

Sorry for the typos I wrote it on my cell phone.

[John Alexander McFadyen]

No worries as I have the same problem when using mine on WC!

[Lydia Shutter]

Monumentally sad....and so very moving. To have a love like that ripped away from you is tragic. Is it true we only have one true love? I am not sure of that. We live in a development of people who are over 55 and many of them are married for the second time either because of divorce or death. They are very happy and say the love they feel for this partner is not the same as it was, but it is in some ways better. Never lose hope. Lydi**

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Thank you Lydi. Tis hard even after eighteen months.

[Joe Heath]

I found this captivating
Beautiful, sad & intense all at the same time

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Thank you Joe for your appreciation.

[~]

This sounds like the love that we all want to have. The one that speaks directly to our soul, and feeds us fervently. I do wish you reunite with her John.

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Thank you MS but it has been eighteen months since I last saw her or heard from her so I am resigned to try not to look at her photograph or her father's paintings.

[~]

awww ..that is heart aching ..

[John Alexander McFadyen]

Indeed and difficult as I have four of her father's paintings in my lounge, gifts from her mother as her father died a couple of years ago. She asked me to keep them and not to disrespect her mother's gifts or her father's memory.