Troubled Soul

A Poem by Phoenix Poetry

For a father.

Past these walls that have been built
There is heartache and pain,
Behind every tear that doesn't fall
There are several that do,
Behind every false lead of happiness
There is a silent scream for help,
Behind the eyes of a joker
There are tears of a clown,

A Troubled Soul is what lies behind every lie
That I tell to the ones that ask if I'm alright
There's pain behind every forced smile and every
Forced laugh that I give people so that I
Don't have questions asked that I
Really don't have the answers to,
I give people what they want to see so that
They don't see the Troubled Soul underneath

The Troubled Soul that's loaded with feelings of:
Hate,
Remorse,
Indifference,
Happiness,
Misery
And
Regret,

For the father who will never be able to
Know the Troubled Soul that his child has
Been carrying around since his death,
The Troubled Soul who will never
Get the chance to tell the father how I
Feel because he's not here to hear it.