Malcolm McDowallA Story by Pitbull1000The sun was like a laser beam, coming through the window,
landing on his face, brought the headache to life. Malcolm McDowall rolled
over and looked around at the room, then got a shock to discover the body of a
woman lying next to him. A stinging sensation bit his bladder, and he rolled
out of bed and made a beeline for the toilet and emptied himself, turned back
and did a double take, for he couldn’t believe it, that there was a naked woman,
lying, facing the wall. Even from here, he could see that she was attractive. But he
couldn’t, for the life of him, remember who she was. He wracked his brain, and
yet, try as he might, nothing came. And then, the headache came back with full
force, crippling him where he stood. He looked around, and suddenly felt
self-conscious about getting back into bed with a woman that he had no
recollection of, but there was nothing else for it, for his body was seizing
up, and he suddenly felt exhausted. And so, he crept up to it and lay next to
her and closed his eyes, and fell back into a deep sleep, aware that the fact
of her was probably going to devastate his life, somehow. Then gave up worrying
and held her and she didn’t move, and the body was warm and soft and supple and
amazing. When next he woke, it was dark. The sound of the outside
traffic and a gentle hiss of rain falling. He looked around for his phone, but
couldn’t see anything, then heard his lamp snap on, and in a moment, saw the
woman’s figure, in the dark, bending down, reaching for something. A voice that
was soft and sweet, said: ‘I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to wake you.’ He looked for her, but it was too dark to see anything. Mercifully,
his headache had subsided. And yet, try as he might, he still couldn’t
remember who she was. Someone, he must have met at the club. He groped around
for the lamp, then finally found it, switched it on and looked up and saw that
she was incredible, like something out of Playboy magazine, then heard himself
say: ‘It’s no problem, I mean I should be getting up, anyway, I mean, what time
is it?’ ‘I’d say it’s past morning,’ she said, leaning in. He looked
up and she pulled away. ‘Can you leave your number? I’d really like to see you
again.’ She said nothing, then left the room without making a sound,
and he looked around and wanted to call out her name, but didn’t know it, and
so, was left in the dark. Night closing in. Dreams entering his head. A woman’s
scream, somewhere in the night. A dog howling. The smell of blood. The woman’s
face, imprinted on his consciousness. He woke the next day, his head subsided, and there was room
to move around without doubling over in pain. He threw the sheet off and sat on
the edge of the bed. A bright sunny day and he had the day off. And the rest of
the summer. It was his fifteenth year of casual relief teaching, and his
holidays stretched out to the horizon, like a vast blue ocean. Not enough money
to travel overseas with, but enough to pay the rent with, and to play, at
least, for a few weeks. He showered and dressed and stepped out into the
sunlight, suddenly determined to forget the blonde who had made it into his
bed, but it was all but impossible. He walked down to the beach and looked out
at the glistening water, like he had one thousand times before, then walked the
long pier and couldn’t help but notice the topless bathers, then sat and looked
out at the water, trying not to obsess her but it was impossible. How was it
even possible that he could have met someone and been successful in bringing
her back to his room and not even be able to remember? Was it possible that she
had drugged him somehow without him noticing? Surely, not. But it was the only conceivable
answer. But why would anyone do that, let alone a woman? With no answers, he gave it up to God and made his way back
to his apartment and put some sausages onto a pan, then turned on the tv set
and sat on the lazy-boy. Images of people being bombed. Death and destruction
and mayhem. Nothing that he wanted to see. When he got up to check on the
sausages, the phone rang, and he picked it up and a voice came over the line,
booming, immediately recognisable: ‘You might to turn your Tv on and take a look at this.’ ‘I’ve already got it on.’ ‘Well, take a look.’ The usual attractive female newsreader was reading her lines
to the camera: ‘A sad day in Sydney. A lone gunman has taken to the streets and
has killed five people in what police describe as a brutal massacre…’ He looked at the television, stunned. ‘I can’t believe what I’m seeing.’ ‘Get used to it, they haven’t caught him, yet.’ ‘How in the hell do you get away with gunning down five
people in broad daylight, under cameras.’ ‘This guy’s just shown us…Well, anyway, I thought you should
know.’ ‘Me, why?’ ‘Give you something to do, over the long hot summer.’ ‘What the hell are you talking about?’ ‘Meet me tomorrow.’ ‘Why?’ ‘Because you’ve got nothing else to do.’ With that, the phone hung up, and he was left to his
thoughts. How long was it since he had slept with a woman? The answer was
decades. He then wrenched his mind away from her, whoever she was, and brought
his attention back to gunmen. The question was why, what was the motive? He went to bed with no answers. Shadows in the room from the
lights of the cars, outside the apartment. But all he could think about was the
anonymous woman that had been in his bed. Talk about ships in the night. Over
and over again, he retraced his steps. Indeed, he had gone to the club to get a
drink and look at the talent, and that was the last thing that he remembered.
So, he must have met her at the bar. At least it was a lead. He supposed that
he should be grateful, if only he could remember the experience. And what the
hell was a lone gun man doing, blowing people away in broad daylight on the
streets of Sydney? Probably, he should give up his sleuthing and simply work a
summer job, but that was far too much work, and he was middle-aged; too old to
work in an ice-cream store. Or was he? He had seen garbage collectors that
might have been sixty, just the other day, and couldn’t figure out what it
meant. Some ominous sign of lack in modern day Australia. But anyway, he had
his painting and his writing and that was what mattered, even if it failed to
resonate at all. But what about the woman, damn it, who the hell was she? The next morning, he woke without a hangover. Poverty never
agreed with him, but nights without alcohol were doing him good. A philanderer.
Was that what he was? First sex in twenty years, so, not likely. No, he was
definitely not a philanderer. For one thing, he was too poor to attract the
interest of most women, anyway. He got himself ready and made it out of the house. Cicadas
hissing, the heat roaring down. He walked, enjoying, as ever, the time off, then
made it to the café without even having to time it, for he knew that his mate
would already be there. A bald head and a chambre shirt, well overweight, sitting,
in the window, with his back turned to the street. Malcolm stepped inside and
pulled a chair up and the man didn’t even bother looking up, but finished off
the crossword that he was working on, and only spoke after several minutes. ‘Well, someone’s missed his morning coffee,’ said the man. ‘What’s happening, Dean?’ ‘You tell me.’ He picked up the paper then put it down again, said: ‘you
know, the usual. Wars in the Gaza strip, the Ukraine, tension in China and
India.’ ‘Right.’ ‘And the little matter of a lone gunman on the foreshore.’ ‘Right again.’ ‘What can you tell me? ‘Nothing.’ ‘Then, why are we having this meeting?’ ‘Because you’ve got nothing else to do, remember?’ ‘Right.’ Dean looked away, then back at him again, a pained
expression coming over his face. ‘Look, the guy’s a quack, they’ll get him soon enough.’ ‘Are you sure?’ ‘Not really, no. But there’s nothing else for it, at this
stage.’ ‘Motive?’ ‘None that can be discernible.’ ‘So, what’s the big deal?’ ‘It’s the brashness of it. Almost lude. It suggests something
more.’ ‘Like he’s showing off?’ They ate their breakfast in silence and agreed to monitor
the situation. But how does one do that, Malcolm wondered. He left the old man
to his newspaper, feeling vaguely disappointed, then started making his way, as
always, down to the beach, back to the glistening waters, and the tanned bodies
lying on the sand. Malcolm sat on a bench and looked out at the water and
wondered what possessed a man to buy a shotgun and murder five seemingly random
people in broad daylight. ‘I’ll tell you what possesses them.’ It was a woman’s voice, deep and husky. ‘Rage.’ Said the woman. ‘Sheer, unadulterated rage.’ Malcolm looked over to where the voice was coming from and
saw that it was less than a woman that he was looking at, and more of a
mutilated body. The head was half blown away and frozen in a grotesque wax work,
a hole right through the head. Black and red congealed blood surrounding it. The
arms were covered in bullet holes; in one, the white bones visible underneath
the skin. It seemed impossible that she was moving, but she was. ‘What in the hell?’ ‘It is hell, that I’m in, but not quite. I’ll let you in on
more details, when I find them out, myself.’ With that, she stood and simply walked away, and he watched
her, until she disappeared into the distance. Some strange mirage that had come
into his mind, and yet he wasn’t so sure. For a second there, he thought that
he could actually smell her, then wondered, all of a sudden, whether or not he
was actually going mad. The sea kept rolling in and the bodies kept lazing in the
sunshine, and it was as though none of it had happened at all. But had he
actually just witnessed a ghost? He stood and continued walking the promenade. Most people, he mused, would consider seeing a psychiatrist
at this point. He remembered his dealings with them: how utterly useless they
were, even toxic. Atheist psychiatrists, the ultimate in chic, yet secretly
seeking to eat a person’s soul, and crush the hope right out of them. But
hadn’t he just had a waking hallucination? And, after all, wasn’t that ground
for insanity? It was, unless the damn thing was real. The sun kept blazing away, and he wondered whether or not,
if he could block it all out of his mind, that it would all just go away. But
that was called suppression, and he knew well enough that that always did more
harm than good. Memories of a nightmare childhood would often come back and haunt
him, and he thanked God for his analytical mind that he had developed in
adulthood. Truly, the ability to fully comprehend a situation was a good way to
solving it. But how does one comprehend a ghost hallucination? And then, as
always, in times of crisis, he remembered his faith, and, as always, it threw
it all back into perspective. Truly there were entities that travelled around
plaguing humankind. After all, they were reported as existing in Christ’s
time, so, why not now? He kept walking and with the gold afternoon light coming
down, decided to step into his local and sit for a while, order a beer and watch
the afternoon slip away. Malcolm McDowall sat and watched the cars drive past
and the girls sit, talking with each other in the booths, and, after the second
beer, it was though none of it existed; just a series of ridiculous events that
had happened to him. That was, until he looked up at the tv that hung from
above the bar. A tall man with a brown beard and brown hair. Built like a
matinee idol, was holding a shotgun, as though it was the most obvious thing in
the world to do. The Tv network then cut back to the newsreader talking but he
couldn’t hear what she was saying. How was it possible that he was able to get
away with all of this, in broad daylight, he wondered, again. And, where the
hell were the police? He finished his beer and paid and stepped outside. A man
sitting on the sidewalk, dressed in a navy tracksuit that had holes in it. A
woman sitting next to him, pregnant, both with a piece of cardboard sitting at
their feet, with the words ‘help, need money’ written in red Texta. Another man,
sitting next to them. The lone gunman was something, but this was the real story: the
huge percentage of the population that was homeless. Without a fixed address, how
were they surviving? For, he knew that you needed to have a fixed address to
get benefits. That was, unless they had one and were out on the street,
begging, anyway. But the fact was - and he knew that the media was keeping it
hidden - that almost half the population were now, effectively homeless, and
there didn’t look to be an end in sight. So much for climate change. It was the
government’s dirty secret, and every day, it was getting worse. He gave the
couple the change out of his wallet and started walking the pavement in search
of answers but there were none to be found. © 2024 Pitbull1000 |
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Added on February 6, 2024 Last Updated on February 6, 2024 AuthorPitbull1000Melbourne, St Kilda, AustraliaAboutI'm a dude with a fascination with literature. Trying to improve my writing. All comments very much appreciated. more..Writing
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