The mask

This poem is about me being able to hide my emotions so that other people don’t see how I truly feel.

I hide my emotions behind this mask
I find it hard to focus on every task
I scream
But no one can hear
The stream of pure ice cold tears
That run down my face
I’m such a disgrace!
Such a disappointment
Such a hate
I empty my food off of my plate
I starve
I cry
I live
I die
That is life
That’s my life at least
I cant get my emotions to be put on a leash
I cannot control
I cannot reveal
So instead
I sit here
With my lips tightly sealed
Not a word
Not a peep
On that bridge I would take that leap
To the beautiful land of everlasting love
Ever lasting warmth
Like a warm winters glove
So here I sit
In this dark, mental, emotional pit
In silence
Waiting for my day to come
Where I am now the guidance
For others to smile
And all the while
I’m breaking
Slowly waking
From this effervescent death
Oh there’s nothing left
Why try
Why cry
Why…oh why.