What's on my mind

It's a debate 
to wait
or to kill
To fulfill
the need itself
Would drive one crazy
A blade on the neck
Drive it through
or just hold back
Hesitate?
Why wait?
Will it hurt?
Couldn't hurt more?
But could it?
All these "Maybe"s
Are driving me crazy!
Is it insanity
to love someone so much
To kill oneself to be once again be with her?

Author's Note

I am not sure if this counts as a poem but I just felt like writing it. Btw IGNORE GRAMMAR.