Lost to You

An honest love poem

The sun pelts down its half past three 
My friends are long gone, I sit motionless infront of the tv 
The booze has worn off but sobriety is well beyond the horizon 
The drugs are still working their way through. 
The sweats and shakes make regular appearances like unwanted door knockers 
I sit here alone, yet in my thoughts I'm always with you. 
I relive the great times we shared over and over again. 
Grasping for a way to get them back. 

I just want you and only you. 
I'd trade every other joy in my life just to be with you again 
An eternity together would still not be enough time to bask in the magic that would forever be us. 
I just want to sleep as I know it brings me one day closer to you. 
But my distractions are gone, im so strung out and I know sleep may not even come until tomorrow. 
I pluck up the courage to put these feelings to paper for I know you will never read them. 
The stereo shuffles the tunes, every god d*mn song reminds me of you. 
You're in my head more than I am, I can still hear your voice 
I close my eyes and all I see are your ocean deep blue eyes into which I sink 
I know I shouldn't give myself to you like this but it's all I want 
If this isn't love then it must be madness and I never want to let it go 

I just want you and only you.... 

... You are the void I will spend the rest of my days trying unsuccessfully to fill. 

Author's Note

Ignore grammar - smart phone. All other feedback welcome