Leaving you for good

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LEAVING YOU FOR GOOD

It's nothing more than a nervous breakdown I try to explain

You didn't have to come all way in this deadly rain

I can see the pain in his eyes, his aching heart

It's the third in this month and he is falling apart

For his and only his sake I am afraid

And so I make a decision I shouldn’t have made

You and I together.... it's not working out

Baby I think we should break up; this is wat it's about

He opens his mouth to say something but then close it again

It stabs me in the heart to see him in pain

He crushes through my lips shutting my mouth off

I’ll make it right don’t leave me just tell me your prob.

He’s driving me insane but I need control

I can't do this to him dragging him to hell or more

“I slept with a guy the other night”

And I think I have fallen for him all right”

His eyes pierce through me taking my breath away

It took him few moments to realize wat I say

He demands who it was but I know no name

Trapped in my own lie he is driving me insane

I try to walk over him while he grabs my hand

Says he’ll blow the guy who dared to trespass his land

I try to convince him I dun love him anymore

But deep inside my heart I wish he dun take me to be a w***e

He staggers away from the room after the scene I put

Will he ever know I’m leaving him for good? ... :”(

LEAVING U FOR GOOD �"II

I broke on the floor just as soon as he was gone

My eyes follow him till he is out of the lawn

I rush to my room like a madman

Throwing things here and there searching for my beer can

I drink till the dark night gives way to sunlight

Can't face all this luminosity, can't take this sight

With so much darkness residing in my heart

It's better to escape this piercing sun-part

I sketch under my blanket with a charcoal piece

A broken mirror, no-moon night and some lost keys...

I knock myself down trying to search for a cutter

As it moves on my hand, not one syllable of pain I utter

I sleep in the ‘scarlet’ bedsheet dripping with pain

Mingled with emotions of lone, regret and complain

... 3days ... he has really left me I try to accept

Just opposite to what I wanted happened:

I lose control I lose my grip on life and do something rash

I enter the bathtub n that's the last material memory I have

The blackness surrounds me till my mind goes numb

Screams around me but I’m all dumb

A white light pierce through all that matters

My brain, my eyes and my earlobes it shatters.....

LEAVING YOU FOR GOOD-III

I rub her hands all way as we go to the clinic

Life without her has no meaning

My eyes are bloodshot my hair is a crap

But I dun give a f**k, I just want her back

I sit at her side with my shirt from 3 days long

Everything right now seems to be going wrong

I never had the courage to leave her home

That day I passed out in her very lawn

3 moons n 3 suns bid me goodbye

But I lay still there waiting to die

She left a void in my heart for not wat she did

But for why she had to lie to me like this

When we both know she never loved anyone else but me

What was it that was still taking her away from me

It took my life away part by part

I felt I’d decompose in this grass

I drank my tears I ate my soul

I know I could never again be whole

Even if she returns as she will surely do

It will never be the same between me n you

For it will still crush me day by day till death takes toll

To know you had to lie to me n u dint trust me at all

I could feel the life sucking away from me

But something makes me get on my feet

I rush to her house, I don’t even know why

To see you in that bathtub I dumbly cry

I regain my senses to shout for help as u turn cold

Here in the clinic I see you slipping away from my hold

I plead with all belief in Him I have

To give u all the span of life I have

I refuse to drink I refuse to eat

If it's gonna be you, you’ll also take me

It seems as if my prayers are answered after all

Coz in sweet happiness n ‘pain I mourn’

As u tighten your grip around my pleated shirt

I look at my angel with my face full of dirt

She uses all her strength to kiss me so true

I cud happily give everything away now with nothing to lose

I kiss her with equal compassion n some strength she regained

I remember her aqua eyes blink just before I faint

LEAVING U FOR GOOD �" IV

There’s nothing but peace in death I realize

It feels so dominating, overtaking �" yet nice

I know my end was already doomed

My inner-soul smiles as they clean my wound

The shirt where she clutched was my left part

There resides my shattered, broken heart

I smile at the thought that they’re clearing the wrong place

Cleaning my hands and all the blood away from my face

When the damage lay inside though shows no internal bleeding

Coz nothing comes after heart nothing preceding

I am all ready to give my life away

When I couldn’t be trusted by that girl...Come what may!

But there is just one thing holding my soul back

I can't leave her like this so there is a time lag

She is crying by my side, her tears burn me ablaze

My broken heart starts smelting under her gaze

She sees my lips moving n bring her ears closer

I murmur I couldn’t fight n that I m a loser

She listens with patience as I tell my death comes with peace

Remind her of all good things and what to me she means

But now The Time with an angry face in front of me stood

I murmur softly... I’M lEAvINg U FoR GoOd

I find myself travelling in the golden caravan all hale n happy

But leaning on my shoulder is a girl with a face sad n crappy

... Yeah she died in my arms as I took my last breath

... Paying for a decision she shouldn’t have made

At least I found peace n content in my death

When she moves along with me bundled up in regret....