Not Today

-and not ever.

Shadows grow bold, as the night grows even colder,

The fog in my head outweigh the pain in my shoulders,

Tried so hard to carry this pain,

For a day of hope I'll wait through the decades of rain.

I keep myself breathing, my hand in my heart,

Please keep me living, till the darkness takes part,

Gone by the door, and the light of my T.V,

Shame on the floor where even God refuses to  see me,

Much to do, and with so little time,

I'm dying too fast, though my smile says I'm fine.

The ache in my heart feels like my soul is escaping,

It's tired of this world, doesn't want to keep living,

So many people, and no one I know,

Seven billion people, and I'm left all alone,

Anger bites the back of my brain,

Darkness clouds the parts of me I kept sane,

I'd rather break all my bones, than have my soul broken,

Part of me can still stay, it's my own life I've stolen,

And in the moment of weakness, with the noose in my neck,

I cried all my tears  out, I'm nothing but wrecked,

And the reflection of my face stares back at me through a window,

A crying child, giving up on everything that he knows,

But no,

You're my foe,

there is one way to beat you,

Turn that frown upside down,

Though it's fake it still fools you.

And though the chair falls, without me in it,

My heart beats faster, here I am, I'm still living.

A broken man I see as I look in the mirror,

A broken man I'll be when I give in to terror,

and then I whispered to myself in that broken mirror,

I don't want to die, I want to learn to be stronger.

Reviews

[kk]

Wow that really made me feel some feelings. The rhyming was great and I really stopped and thought about your story. Great job

[Matthew Soliguen]

Thank you, it really means a lot to me that someone actually likes my work XD Good luck with your own writing!