Last ''Crooked'' Weekend

This is my last ''crooked'' weekend before my surgery December 18, 2012. So I decided to write about it.

Chilling in my pj's getting used to the thought

It's my last crooked weekend,

not more time to be bought.

Here I go, a opportunity for a cure is no longer months away,

It's no longer creeping around the corner,

Or a week away,

it's now this Tuesday.

Here I go, 

Trying to get used to the fact,

I will no longer be ''crooked back.''

Here I go,

As anxiety and worry flows up then floats away,

I don't need the worry, I'll be okay.

I've gone through the actions through my head,

Walking down to the operating room,

Lying down then being sent off to dream land thanks to an IV.

I've Tried so many different things to prevent the need of a stay in a hospital bed.

Oh, how many tears I have shed. 

And the blood that I've bled

But this is something I must accept.

Here I go, I'm trying to accept reality.

But reality is too insane, I prefer my fantasy.

Here, In  reality I cry like rain,

but in my fantasy there is no pain.

Here I try to grasp reality,

 but the harder I try to hold in my hands, 

 Like sand it slips through my finger tips.

It's so hard to try to accept the exact thing you were trying to prevent for so long.

I must be strong,

Even when things are so freakin' wrong.

People tell me keep telling me ''everything will be okay',

and that the pain will go away.

But Pain has become like an old friend to me,

Why take her away?

Why accept reality?

It's slipping through my fingertips like sand...

 I will be ''Crooked back'' no more,

 Indestructible I will be.

Like Terminator but the stronger than Schwarzenegger

Could ever be.

For the first while I will be weak but I will get stronger.

For like what they say in Prometheus

''Great things have small beginnings.' 

and I surely am  in the winnings.

Author's Note

Not trying to rhyme or anything necessarily just trying to write out some things..tell me what you think :)

Reviews

[Edward]

Hmm wonder who calls you crooked back? XD

[Soul Fire]

Arkun -.-

[Edward]

Love you too soul XD

[Soul Fire]

XD

[Andrew (MJ) Nugteren]

you will be ok. we all will miss and be thinking of you. we just hope that your going to be happier. we'll be thinking of you. get better soon.

[Soul Fire]

Thanksvery much Andrew

[Andrew (MJ) Nugteren]

no problem i've been their to