Maybe I Should..

This is how I feel from time to time. I can't really put it in any better words becuase I can't explain how I truly feel, but I hope the metaphor can help you somewhat understand.

I guess I'm done. I'm finished and fail and succeeded

Maybe I should just give up writing and art and just focus on school and my band. 

Maybe I should throw away all my books that are just there never going to get published 

Maybe I should erase all my adobe creative suite and just use my computer just for Facebook YouTube, games

Maybe I shouldn't use mt phone for researching and typing out pages for my never-will-be-published stories Just Text everyone of my contacts by saying "what's up" and "hello"

Only replying one word

Maybe I should cut my hair

Get contacts and wok out non stop

Till people feel content with my looks 

Maybe I should play football and basketball

Smoke weed and cigarettes like some people snort cocaine

Shoot up heroine and pop extacy

Maybe I should move out of my patents house

Get a car and drive

Just drive until the roads end

Maybe I should GI hunting

Fishing

Compete in sports obsessiveness with them as it comes

Maybe I should go to a psychologist

Talk about my mind

Maybe I should get electroshock therapy

Erase my knowledge that they have told me

I should erase my mentality of self-awareness, infinite possibilities

Maybe I should compose untalented hip hop music and spend my time

Talk about sex, drugs

Money that way I can feel myself as content in the music scene

Maybe I should learn to fight

Learn to cause pain with my hands

Maybe I should become one of you

Maybe I should erase everything within myself

Become the heartless person I once was

Not give a damn about everything and anything

Maybe I should write a different form of knowledge

One of simplistic views

Pain

Sell cocaine on the streets

Maybe I should run from everything

Never fave the past

Maybe I should just die

Then I'll see the light that people call god

Maybe I should move to India

Learn they're system

Maybe I should become a christian

Believe in something that represents hope

Maybe I should go back to SLEEP...

Author's Note

If there's one thing I always feel...is pain.