Choices

Under my nails is all blood and dirt

No one ever told me that love could hurt

Or how easily to hate it could turn

Much about life I still have to learn. 

My soul is full of so much hate and anger

That I feel like I have become a total stranger

Even to myself, I don't know what I'm going to do

When I feel such rage and jealousy over you. 

You tore me apart inside and you try to apologize

But I don't want to hear it, your words are lies

And you know it, else you would not have chosen another

When we both said that we still love each other. 

I hate the choices you decided to make

After all my love and trust you had to take

I was sure that I'd found the one for me

The one by whose side I'd always want to be. 

I loved you with all I had, body, soul, and heart

And you took what I let you and tore it apart

Then watched while I crumpled to the ground

And listened to me cry, listened to every sound. 

I want to say I hate you, to hate you in my core 

Because then it wouldn't hurt me anymore

To see your face, to hear your voice, 

But I know that I could never make that Choice.