This is Me Looking at YouA Story by Shauni FryeAnxiety has always controlled how I look at the world. When I finally found the courage to look up I saw you looking at me and everything changed.This is Me Looking at You Today I looked at you for the first
time. I saw alluring grey eyes that spoke to my universe. It whispered whirls
of light that touched my soul. Today I looked at you for the first time. I saw
your smile that was as wide as the skies are blue. It conveyed this charm about
you that makes the moths wreak havoc on my insides. For that moment, that split
second of just us being connected and together in a singular moment in time and
space I felt what it is like to be loved. I felt our hearts and souls in
collaboration with each other beating in time. Even now as I think about it,
the memory sends electric waves to wash over me creating this light and joyous
feeling. Every question, every doubt is pulled away out to sea and I am left
weightless, floating, smiling at the memory of your eyes and the wide, charming
smile that reached the grey orbs of your being. This is what I’ve been missing. Not
love. I have the greatest love I will ever know, and no human is capable of
reaching the top of the Heavens. What I have been missing was this connection
to another human being and a want to lift my head and look into the world. I
have always been terrified to look into the world. It has been beaten into me
that when I look up into the world I will see nothing but pain. I stopped
taking the risk a long time ago until I met you. When I met you my world was in
shambles. I was slowly caving in as the world swallowed me up. You put out your
hand to touch me gently like a human luring a scared animal out of a hole. I
refused to look up as if I did you would turn into a monster. I flinched as I
felt your hand caress my flesh as you whispered calmingly into my head to
unravel my thoughts. I melted into you as you reversed the pressure that
constricted my breathing. You untangled the mess of thoughts threading through
brain making a maze out of it all. I was wandering around lost and you found
me. Not only did you find me, but you helped me to find my way out of my
darkest hole. Today was the first time I didn’t
let fear control me. It was just a glimpse, but that glimpse into your universe
was all I needed to build my confidence to do it again. I want to see more of
your eyes that speak life and beauty into this dank world. I want to see more
of that smile that can cause an earthquake under just my feet. I want to study
your face and hands. I want to memorize every little detail about you. Why?
Because today I looked at you for the first time and saw a person as scared as
I am and yet when you looked up into the world you saw me, and it made you
smile. © 2018 Shauni Frye |
StatsAuthorShauni FryeNCAboutI am a college student working on a degree in Elementary Education, and I also work full time as a Pre-school teacher's assistant. I love being creative in every outlet and I want to expand on my love.. more..Writing
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