Miss you more everyday

In a few more days, it'll be another year for me

And I'll celebrate and bask in the glow

Of knowing that I had made it another year

But one thing will never be the same

You aren't here to give me advice

I could really use you right now.

I've fucked everything all up again

These past two years have been hell

What I wouldn't give for one more conversation

To hear your old stories one more time

So another year wiser I maybe

But I'd gladly give away a year

Just to hear your voice

No one picks on me the way you did

No one looks at me with that glimmer of pride

Would you even be proud of me?

God knows I've messed so much up

Don't know if you've heard or seen

But I got my first tattoo

Wasn't what I planned on either

The first time I heard the gun all I could see

Was a memory of us years ago

You sketching me a bunny as I sat in your lap

So now I have a little blue bunny

How about that old man?

The one thing you ever pussied out on

And now I have one because of you

You know I can't shange me hair

Everytime I do I miss you more

I will always be a red head just because of that look

The look in your eyes when I first showed you

You looked like you were going to cry

I know you're with your mom now

I'm glad I helped you remember her

It's weird for me know thinking back to how everything was.

Author's Note

Just the emotional ramblings of a girl missing her grandfather