Home alone

Left all alone in my corner of the world

How does it seem

to be fine

to hurt all the time

and try to pretend

that everything is OK.

A tree that grows on my front yard. 

Planted when I was born.

It seems this is what 

my life is 

built on.

Pretend everything 

is OK.

When it's not.

My mother says 

"Your dad can never know,

it will kill him

so if you tell then

you have killed him" 

Older now so I can climb

my tree

I named her Mable

Don't tell your Dad.

Don't tell me you are so sad, 

my mother says

it makes me to sad to hear it.

"I have to bear it! Don't tell me!"

So I have to bear it?

Alone?

Do you think I am strong

like a stone? 

I am just your little girl,

just your little 

one.

You cried and had pain

when you gave me this world,

Now there is pain all around me too, 

There are points of pleasure

but they ignite my desire 

ans make me want to hoard

and like the monkey 

in his test lab,

Hit the same button until she dyes.

I feel like hot bacon

in the frying pan

SIZZLE SIZZLE Burned

But some people like it crispy.

I've found my way

and everyone had to learn

how to grow their roses

and cook their own BLTS

Everyone had to know now to 

Set their own table and

make their own garden.

Everyone has to pull up our 

boot straps.

Get her done. 

I'm done. 

Get me out of here,

Reviews

[Chris]

It's one thing to belong and wholly another to continually make do while feeling always out-of-place and apart. I remember being aware of culture shock warnings as I traveled the world... but for my perceptions I just didn't feel - left out of my nows nor missing what was behind me. I don't envy the ones that suffered.

[The Twin Arenas]

you still in Korea, chief?

[RubyOmma]

Yes. I visited home over Christmas and until the end of January.