"And So I Am"

A self-discovery type of lyrical poem ...

"And So I Am"

(2012)

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Struggling to be who I am

Is who I am now

Even who I'll become here after?

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For years I hid tears

Behind laughing walls

That feared others' laughter

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And as I sit here alone

My demons I am fighting

While questioning the direction life's heading

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Oh, I just can't do what they want me to do

And do they even do what they tell me to do?

Oh, how can I adapt to changes and still remain true?

For what once seemed so close now seems so far

What's so far away makes everything so hard

Frustration sets in when I'm so lonesome and blue

Sometimes I just want to leave behind these blues

And head up to the stars shining bright over all of you

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And though I'm far gone just before dawn, I'm still up and alive

All alone, but happier than I've been in a long while

And so I am

And so I am

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A legend growing within my mind's eye

But an outcast here

In the eyes of the masses

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For years I hid fears

Out of fear

I'd actually enjoying rhyming others to laughter

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And even if they want me to be who they are

Who are they now?

Do they even know who they are?

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Oh, I just can't look how they want me to look

And do they even look how they tell me to look?

Oh, how can I adapt to this ever-changing book of life?

'Cause if you can look beyond all my troubles and scars

Beneath all the rubble still bubbles this heart

If you can listen beyond all my mumbling parts

You'll hear me turning a troubled life

Into beautiful art

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And I don't need anyone to tell me where I'm going and when

For I'm discovering now what I thought I knew then

And so I am

And so I am

Reviews

[Erica Daubert]

Bubbles, I love this poem. Especially since I know you so well being one of my friends, I actually got chills at one point because I know how you have come especially in this last year! I can't wait to read more. You should read this one out!