I wish...

Mind things from 1AM.

I wish you'd know what goes on in my mind.

I wish you'd know that I'm not happy.

I wish you'd know that I live in the dark. 

I wish you'd know that I wear a mask.

I wish you'd know that I cut myself.

I wish you'd know that I want to kill myself.

I wish you'd know that I hate myself.

I wish you'd know that I'm pissed at myself.

I wish you'd know that I was abused.

I wish you'd know that I'm not afraid to die.

I wish you'd know that I'm afraid to talk.

I wish you'd know that my life depends on pride and strength.

I wish you'd know that I will prove you wrong.

I wish you'd know that I wish I were dead.

I wish you'd know that I feel so worthless and useless.

I wish you'd know that I'm struggling.

I wish you'd know that I'm going mentally insane.

I wish you'd know that I'm dying.

I wish you'd know that I'm torturing myself.

I wish you'd know that I have anxiety and depression.

I wish you'd know that my silence is not isolation.

I wish you'd know that I'm broken and bound.

I wish you'd know that I just want you to listen.

I wish you'd know that I'm not good/okay/fine.

I wish you'd know that I just want a friend who'll be there. 

Reviews

[Bluebird]

Your poem really echoes the tormenting thoughts that poor mental health inflicts. I hope your writing helps with your recovery

[SWord389]

Thank you!!! I appreciate it.