My pinky promise

I'm having a horrific case of writer's block
As nothing comes to mind, the time turns on the clock
Right now I am just in shock
Writing my feelings down for you comes so easy, I usually have it on lock
At this moment in time I am at a loss for words, should I just stop?
No, you know me i fight for what i believe in until I make it to the top
Im fighting to make you happy, ive put in the work
Trying for nothing because you picked him, I guess we weren't meant to work
Never was fate or destiny
I am now giving up hope and everything I believe
All I believed in you and us, im done and this is how its meant to be
You're leaving and hurting me for that last time lets see
This feeling is overwhelming, I really dont know what's going to happen to me
Ive lost all hope on an us at this point
Given it all up, I feel cold in every single joint
Ive dreaded this day I would show you this, now you disappoint
Disappoint me and my heart, but I guess this is our endpoint
The love I have for you is and will always go unparalleled
This time it cut deep, it was heartfelt
I wish I would have shown you the other letter and how it was spelled
But I couldnt, i would have loved for it to have been beheld
Im not going to prolong this anymore
I love you and was longing for you to give me more
But the choice has been made and its what I have to go by
Im partially glad its over, this I cant deny
My brain was fried and I couldnt stand other day of this, oh my
But am I really okay with this? This is one thing I wont be able to apply
On hope, for an us, I was ever so high
Had faith and love towards you but you let it all die
I hate you for this, and dont think I will ever befriend you again. This is not a lie
You dont like seeing me hurt so be proud that you will never have to see me cry
For this is my farewell, my pinky promise kiss goodbye.