Dear You

This is one of several poems I wrote for this crush that I have...

Dear You:

I don't know what to say...
I don't know what to do...
At the end of the day it all goes back to you...
I can say that it's over...
But I know that it's not...
It drives me insane to know I can't stop...
When I see your face...
It drags me back in, I hate to admit it
But you always win...
I never like to lose, but that's not for me to choose...
With time and recollection...
I might give you this gift...
I feel for you more than I should...
But 5 years ago, given the same scenario...
I feel for you more than I ever thought I could...
Back then I refused to get attached...
Because my feels were all this than that...
I've changed so much for way back when...
I could have a crush, then lose it to the wind...a
But you are different I don't know why...
We are so different you and me...
I like this and you like that its hard to see...
How you could ever like someone like me...
So I've chosen to let you go..a.
I'm sorry but it's all part if a bigger plan you know...
I wanted all I could from you...
I tried and tried but you never took the clues...
So understand from here on out...
I will speak of you, but still have doubt...
But in my heart will always be a space for you that will never leave...
Dear you who's name I will not say...
I hope we both see better days...
I hope this world will make you happy...
The pain you feel won't weigh to heavy...
The better sweet will one day fade...
I'll let you go until that day...
The last words you will hear me say is...
Dear You...

Yours truly,
Love
Santateo White Jr