Decide, Don't Decide. (Oh Please Let It Be Me)

I'm in love, dreaming of marrying him, but when it comes to this thing called religion.... I stand no chance. Oh god, don't let me be hurt again.

I'm so in love with him

The way we started was solely on whim

I was a immature girl who felt lonely

I needed someone, someone to care for me

Like others hadn't.  I wanted solid ground

Something stable I could mound

That would hold me above the water I so easily drown in.

He was that stability I craved, so I asked him to take me in

Keep me close to his heart, and he did

I fell for him more, more and more and I couldn't rid

The love I felt, no matter the things he does

He had my heart no matter what he was

I thought nothing could ever come between us as I fell deeper

But trials always came and I found myself the weeper

I tore myself from him, unable to deal with the fact that he could hurt me

Like so many others before, my mother, father, myself... so I set myself free

But I was chained to him, heart and soul, and found myself gravitating back

I was unable to derail myself from this track

That I'd chosen to take 4 years ago, how long my heart had to engrave itself with his name

I knew the way I saw life would never be the same

I grew mature, I grew to love myself because of his love

I felt so high that I could fly- just like a dove

But always, always there are problems.  I have dreams

I have ambitions and he has a religion, one that deems

Me unfit, a bad choice and by holding me dear, he turns his back to his beliefs

I've changed myself already so much, one thing I dare not touch are my beliefs

But I want him so bad, I don't want to let him go

Four years and I love him so

But if I stay, which I want so much to say, we'll be living a lie

One that'll form hate, oh god I'd want to die

I don't want him to lie to himself, I don't want to change myself, I love who I am... I'd be lying to myself

Is this the last chapter?  Must I put this book on the shelf?

Without a happy ending?  I don't want this lovely dream to end

But these struggles are becoming a trend

And this is one, the ultimate one between me and his religion

He's so confused and scared, hell I'm scared... but if I stay, it'll be a continuation

Of the same discussion of confused, the unknown: the future

I don't want him to choose between the two, but indeed I also do... I'm so unsure

I'm afraid and I do and don't want to set him free

I'm so scared over what he'll choose.  I don't want to hear that to him... something is more important than

Me