Self Loathing

 

Self Loathing

 

I see myself in the mirror,

 

The image shatters,

 

Hundreds of little blades,

 

Reflecting what I truly am,

 

All my flaws surround me,

 

The mock me with my faults,

 

Yet the blades know all,

 

The tiny knives comfort me,

 

They understand my pain, my hatred,

 

I feel them in my skin,

 

My hands carve out the path,

 

The blood, the pain, the scars,

 

At last I see the light,

 

Emotions are flowing into me,

 

I relish the moment, the escape,

 

Clear tears pour down my face,

 

Crimson tears drip down my flesh,

 

Past mistakes transform into red rubies,

 

My true self is scattered around me,

 

I try to see myself for what I truly am,

 

But all I see are my beautiful jewels.

Reviews

[unspokenguilt]

Wow...it's sad, but a powerful poem!
it's a battle within and one only you can win...hold your head up, pull fourth and you'll pull through :)
best wishes and much love,
elyssa