Do we really belive in our religion?

I dont think that people really belive in theire religion.

Do we really believe in our religion? '

 Is a question that came to me yesterday, I was

praying with my family.

I am an orthodox Christian (or I think so), since it is ester this week, it is an important week where everyone fasts and pray. It was nothing anyone said or did, it just came as a thought, I was ashamed that I would think so "wrong", if I had said it out loud to my parents they wouldn’t have understood and would just say I shouldn’t think about stuff like this.

 In a world where we are told what to do, I have always wondered how much we humans’ control and choose. In a way there are things that we have no control over. When people would say things like that to me, I would question them.

 In my mind, we choose what we want to be, we are shaped by our experiences and our point of view of this world. So, when people would say "I didn’t choose it" I would get mad because this was a thought in prosses, we humans have a self-sabotaging effect where we think negative, and it comes to life.

 Religion is very important to me, I don’t know why it is, but I believe that there must be someone controlling this world, we couldn’t just pop up to life. The question is just who is that God is we want to believe in.

Like I said earlier, our past experiences really shape us, a huge part of our childhood we experience the world through our parents. When they have been told what religion to believe in, it is likely they follow in their parent’s footsteps. But do they really believe in their religion or is it just something that they have been exposed to? Am I really a Christian if I didn’t choose to be? I was "born" into it, I have read about other religions, and I always find ways to debunk them to make the religion I have been exposed to seem like the right one.

 If I was born into Muslim household, I would have defended and debunked every religion because it was what I have believed my whole life.

Religion has become this identity that we believe in, it is a part of our self that reassures us for what is about to come. Sometimes I think to myself if religion for many people is just a way of trying to "control" the inevitable.

But what do you guys think, do we really believe in our religions or is religion for many just a part of their childhood that they have become too attached to?

Author's Note

Thank you for taking the time to read my story.