Who Am I supposed To Be?

I'm in a world

lost, ignored.

Never accepted

by a community

that looks like me.

Why?

All my differences

stressed by my peers.

Looked over by

mainstream eyes.

They don't care,

so why do you?

Yes, I'm reading a book.

Not committing a crime.

But if I point this out,

I'm the elitist.

State of things,

enough to depress me.

And I'm a woman

pushed down even further.

My existence denied unless

I'm willing to copy sensational,

'reality' tv stars.

Am I not important?

Can't look at me

unless I'm setting myself back?