Most Days

A letter from an imperfect perfectionist

Most days I’m really struggling with my mental health and recently it’s been overwhelming

Most days I feel like I’m failing and my child deserves a better parent

Most days I think about how much I want another child, to give my daughter a sibling, and I can’t understand why I feel so unlovable

Most days I struggle with the pressure to keep a household all on my own

Most days I struggle with feeling ungrateful because I know how blessed I am

But most days I can barely get out of bed

Most nights I don’t want to wake up and do it all over again

I keep wondering if this is normal, but it can’t be

Because even when I feel happy, I feel sad

I don’t know why I’m writing this

I really don’t want a lecture or anything like that

I just feel heavy right now

And I think I needed to get that off my chest