I am what I am

A thought that I have been tossing around in my mind since a long time.

If I’m happy, I’m an escapist

Ignorant of the coarse reality

If I’m sad, I’m ungrateful

For all the gifts life blessed me with

If I’m proud of myself, I’m vain

Living with a delusional image of self

If I’m humble, I’m a pessimist

Not ready to believe that the glass can be half full

Or note a silver lining on the dark thundering clouds

Not courageous or skilled enough

To use my talents right

If I love someone, its infatuation

If I hate someone, it’s a biased perception

If I have chosen a path with my own faculties of mind

I’m an over-confident, narrow-minded wretch

If I rely upon suggestions, I’m labeled a mindless cripple

Another blank face in a wide sea of faces as blank as mine

If I make myself a priority, I’m selfish

If I neglect my being, I suffocate

If I try to please you, I’m a flatterer

If I mind my own life, I’m an egoist

If I call out for help, I’m a coward

If I trust my strengths, I’m unrealistic

If I cry, my tears are termed fake

If I don’t, I’m insensitive

If I express my feelings, I’m talkative

If I can’t my thoughts to words, I’m an introvert

If I enquire about you, I intrude upon your life

If I let you be, I don’t care

If I live among the stars, I’m fantastical

If I stay rooted to the ground, I’m mentally dead

With no dreams to brighten up the darkness

That presides over my existence

If I say “I Love You”, I mean it

Believe it

If I say “I Hate You”, I do

Accept it

Some people in life can never be pleased

Perfection, though distant, resides here in my heart

Where the only one who matters the most

Is Me

I give love for the care that I get

I give hate for the contempt that I’m shown

Nothing held back or taken for granted

Love me for what I am

Or hate me because I will never be like you

No more will I shape my life to become your clone

Wasting my warm tears on a heart, cold and dead, that never did beat

Guess, I ran out of patience and hope

For you to be proudly pleased

But some people in life can never be pleased

Perfection, though distant, resides here in my heart

Where the only one who matters the most

Is Me

Reviews

[*~*Butterfly Kisses*~*]

Amazing piece, reminds me of how twisted the world seems to be. Loved this. Good job!

[Silent Lover]

This poem is astounding! I really liked the first 3 verses. This really captures the paradox of life. Damn you, you steal the words and feelings out of my mind and write poems! I wanted to write this poem...haha - Very good work.