I had a soul

Isn't it crazy how much I loved you
I gave you something greater than my heart
I gave you my soul
Because you see before I met you
I was already broken
My heart was damaged
So I said to myself 
I can't give him my heart
That's already damaged
I want to give him more than that
Because he's the one I believe
He's the one I trust
He's the one I fell in love with
You can't give someone a broken heart
What kind of promise is that?

So
I gave him my soul
You might not get it
So let me explain
I was only 5
I grew up with a mother
A mother who had no love for me
Two brothers who had no love for me
A father who did but left me behind
Always getting bullied at school
Along with the place I should call home
But you see it was just a house
Because a home is warm
A home is where you feel
Like you belong

I wasn't able to show emotions
If I did I would get a beaten
The only friend I had
Was the blazer that touched my skin
Teachers started to notice 
So they called my home
She started to change
She seemed to care
But once the lady left our home
It was all back to hell

I was blamed
So it didn't stop there

Finally graduating soon
Was on a roll
My junior year went so well
Maybe now once I graduate
My mother will notice me

Summer before my senior year
Parts of my body wasn't mine anymore
I had bruises on parts of me
I woke up bleeding
All this going on
I felt nothing
I couldn't even cry
I stayed in the bath for hours
I went insane
But I couldn't show any emotions


After so much in my life
I still had hope
I still cared
I still loved
I still had a soul ....

Reviews

[rickm97]

Very touching write, Guadalupe.
You walked through so much fire, but in the end you still have your soul.
Never give up on all that is good in life, and there is indeed good in life.

[Guadalupe]

Thank you so much for the time you took to read it!:)