Trust Me

I felt the cool breeze from the fan as it hits me from the opposite wall.
I'm far to cold to enjoy it, though sweating enough to need it.

A new setup may mean a new start, but our history disagrees.

I certainly wish I could be content for one moment in my life.

A single moment with no drama, complete sobriety, and the only high I would feel is love.

My heavy heart seems like stone, but be buried inside and feel loved.

Once a close relationship is formed you will see the passion and sympathy with ease.

"You don't have to be alone", was said by a wise, bearded drunk at the bar.
So I finish my drink and say, "Thanks...but nothing that is said here matters in the morning.

I'm not going to stand and wait. I will push and fight to not escape.

Something isn't right and everybody knows, too scared to talk about it though.

Worried looks on my lovers face, coworkers, and my family far away.

Everything belongs somewhere so I think I'll let them stay there while I wait for the feeling of a full life.  I don't think they will even miss me...

I steal, cheat, and lie through my teeth.

Is wrong not to feel guilty, but free?

Conor Oberst's words;

"For no one plans to sleep out in the gutter, but sometimes that just the most comfortable place!"
Trust me.

Author's Note

No rhymes, no preparation. Just venting is one of the easiest way possible. So please stay clear of common poem criticism, for this poem at least. Just let me know how it makes you feel emotionally. For that is what poetry is; capturing the reader in the desired mind set.

Reviews

[just is]

Goodness such a powerful read, nicely written.

[Libby McKeown]

I wish I could be content for one moment in my life. That one line probably sums up my whole existence. It's an amazing and powerful line. The beginning stanza hooks the reader right in, but the heavy heart line seems misplaced and almost gratuitous. Overall, good work, but could use a little fine tuning. Thanks for sharing!!