Beautiful

Have tried so many times to put feelings, sadness, hurt into words. This has been through no fewer than twenty rewrites. Sorry so long, but had to get it out.

Anger mellows,

age comes, feelings die,

fires dim, years fade, but 

  the heart goes on. 

 

For a place of safety 

  for the years ahead, 

that I can live with 

  the memories, the sadness, 

that I can live in warmth, in rightness,

justified of love!

 

A patch of sun,

a place beyond anger,

a place of peace, of calm,

of strength, of healing, 

a state of mind, to 

  forget, but to remember!

 

Faces through the years, 

like empty corridors,

all of them as heartbeats,

now as stars in a

  darkened sky;

eyes that just wouldn't see, 

didn't understand a

  raging in the heart of me. 

 

A loss unspeakable yes, but 

  a strength, the strength 

  to go on. 

Happy memories, that

  I not fade away. 

They live in dreams

  of my heart. 

 

Beautiful, to 

  shelter in its peace,

rest in its quietness,

in its wisdom,

to listen to her voice,

to see her evening skies. 

 

'Be happy, 

  for the years of love, 

for you loved

  strongly, deeply. 

Be grateful for 

  memories held, 

be happy and proud 

  for a love held so long.

Always look for and 

  remember the good. 

Be grateful for that love.'

 

They'll never be more 

  beautiful than when 

  I loved them. 

Love dies in me,

opportunity lost to them.

Maybe they helped me to grow.

 

A light shone, 

a darkness that  

  didn't understand 

a heart spoken, expressed.

I loved true of me, 

now pieces left behind ....

 

Remembering 

  the good times, 

the little memories.

Just to remember the sun;

the good times  ....

  for a lifetime  ....

Hang onto those pieces!

 

'You were true to your heart, 

you followed your heart, 

you were true to self. 

You loved them, but 

  you did love;

Your loving them 

  happened for a reason, 

it was worth it just to love.’

Celebrate that it existed!

If I felt something  

  it was worth it.

Be happy, please be happy!

 

'Somewhere in the

  soul of you they live,

remember their beauty,

remember feelings that kindled,

remember the love,

they are the heart of you.'

 

'Love doesn't cease to be love 

  because it doesn't find a home.

Maybe in not having them, 

you did have them, in a way 

  no-one could, through your 

  honesty, sincerity, truth.

Maybe that is to be your sun, 

your warmth in this chapter. 

They are part of your story.'

 

'No-one can take that love from you,  

can take away what it meant, 

your feelings and thoughts spoken, 

no-one can speak against the heart, 

can say your feelings,

your loving them was wrong.’ 

  

‘Be happy, please be happy!’

 

 

Just memories laying easy,

no anger, but peace, 

a love forever

 

My love is young and fresh, 

for a love I never knew, and 

  that I should choose them!

 

remember Beautiful, 

go there often,

think this,

read this,

live this everyday! 

Reviews

[Fabian G. Franklin]

There are echoes of Shakespeare's sonnet 116 in this, not so much the form as the content. It is a beautiful contemplation on unspeakable joy; on the secret inner happiness that comes from loving and being loved. I very much enjoyed reading. F.

[NormaZ]

Beautiful poem, so heartfelt!

[Richard M]

Thank you Norma for dropping by and reading. Glad you enjoyed it.
Take care my friend
Richard
ⁿ

[Davidgeo]

Sometimes, I remember things from too long ago... from when I was a different person, and I feel so much guilt and regret over making such life changing decisions equipped with such a poorly developed state of mind. But i Know now... I am not the same person, but I still must own those consequences, responsibilitya and accountability are still all mine to reconcile. This is what emotional maturity is... not just taking the pain, not just "learning" from the pain.... but using it, in the real world to make yourself and those around you into better versions of what they might otherwise be. You're a good writer... you do good things with what you are capable of,,,, I have unique respect for that.

[Richard M]

Thank you for reading and for your thoughts and insights.

[Silmara McGarry]

The honesty the bravery of putting emotions out in a most sincere poem that makes the readers think of happy and sad memories that reflect in all of us. A huge well done from me dear Richard 👏🏻
Stay well
All best
Sil
:-)

[Richard M]

Thank you Silmara for reading, it's nice to meet you. Yes, I guess to keep those pieces of memory warm.
Thank you my friend.
Take care
Richard

[Betty Hermelee]

A very honest poem; one speaks of love, which a times can be painful, but one's heart is always there to comfort; You showed us your true feelings; memories can be happy or sad; life is too short to dwell on the despondent feelings; so we must open our hearts to life and the good thing it can bring to us.....
Thank you for sharing.
Best, B

[Richard M]

Hi Betty, Thank you for reading and your comments. One of the longest, wrenching poems I've written, but had to get it out. Had to find the sun, in the darkness.
Hope you are well my friend?
Take care
Richard

[Betty Hermelee]

You're very welcome my friend.
Best, B

[red93]

I enjoyed this Richard but I felt it was played out over too many lines, and it got a bit diffuse and confusing at times. I should try a bit of judicious pruning and it may improve the overall quality.

[Richard M]

Thank you sincerely for reading and for your comments. I take your point, and agree too long! In my defence, all I can say is the overflowing and emotions of the heart.
I know I write long and, as a writer, I thank you for making me aware. I need to work on this.

Sincere thanks.
Richard

[Lisasview]

Hi there,
Been awhile since I reviewed any of your work... mainly because I broke my clavicle and I type with one finger on my left hand..not easy...
I really enjoyed your poem.
Believe that although love can end up being painful that if one keeps an open heart, then love will reappear.
I think it is amazing that you could pour out your feelings...and I do believe by doing so it helps heal.
I do not know why but for some reason I am brought back to a memory of being young and being upset about something...and, my mother saying write down all your feelings then tear up the paper and flush the pieces down the toilet... I suppose this was her therapy... I can not remember if it worked or not...
Isn't it amazing that a poem can evoke memories...
I really was drawn to these lines...
'No-one can take that love from you,
can take away what it meant,
your feelings and thoughts spoken,
no-one can speak against the heart,
can say your feelings,
your loving them was wrong.’
These words of yours are so true,
Lisa, still in Spain

[Richard M]

Hi Lisa, Thank you for reading and so appreciate your review under the circumstances. Sorry to hear of your injury and hope that you are okay and bettering slowly (((GENTLE HUGS))) xx

Beautiful? I had to write something that saved me, that justified me, that remembered that time, but remembered me and gave me peace. It's clear that these times meant more to me than it did to them, and I would be the one carrying the burden of this into my future. I needed somewhere safe. Beautiful here is a place, a sanctuary.

Take care my friend and tank you for reading
Richard

[Lisasview]

You are so welcome... And, good for you writing it down...helps...
I posted a poem the other day that I wrote when I was 20... Wilted Soul writing when I was young was my salvation..
Lisa, giving myself two hours to write...

[Ranger Kessel]

Very emotional. It takes bravery to pour out so much but it truly gives this poem meaning

[Richard M]

Ranger, thank you for reading this. Very emotional, but tried to think of the loss' in a positive, unlifting way and this is what I wanted to convey. Did I achieve that ?
Take care my friend.
Richard

[Ranger Kessel]

I think you did. It definitely wasnt portrayed a negative way. I enjoyed it

[Richard M]

Thank you for that :) Much appreciated!

[Melinda McQueen]

It can be scary to put your heart out there once you've been hurt. But when finally the one is found it's well worth it. Your poem captives so much. All I can say is...
Beautiful!

[Richard M]

Thank you Melinda for reading and reviewing. So many emotions ooze together still. Beautiful is written in trying to calm the effects. Thanks for stopping by my friend. Hope you are well?
Take care
Richard