If Only There Were Second Chances

Health project.

I can still feel myself falling

And I know it's never going to end

I can even see myself lying there on the cold reddened ground

Chests are barely moving

Breath is escaping from the ever closing lips of life

Yet, eyes stay open to tell the story through her... my tears

Music blaring in the background of this slow moving memory

I see red on everyone's hands

Visions blur to the point that faces are unrecognizable

And I can still feel myself falling

Onto the couch that used to keep me next to my friends late at night

Where I could feel the happiness that I thought I felt then

One thing led to another and I realized things might be worse than it seems

I hear slamming all around me

I don't really know why

All I do know is that I want to get away from here

It's pushing all of these horrible memories back at me

I can still feel myself falling

I can feel the wind around me even though i'm not outside

yet, one other seems to realize this wind too

Eyes so wide, but not scared

Saying, lets just make it home. All I want to do is sleep

Confusion comes back again

I'm spinning, unable to gain control of anything

Especially my own life

I'm falling

I hear metal scrape, bend, collapse

Pain sears through my ever so fragile body

A silent scream

Darkness

I can still feel myself falling

Staring up at the sky

At the stars

Oh how beautifully they shine tonight

Other lights flash red and blue

All that matter now are the stars

I can feel myself being lifted

Even though I'm still laying on this cold red ground

Tonight I will become part of the stars

I will watch everyone in this cruel, demonic world

When it rains it will be my tears due to the horrors that tug on my soul

The memories that will never fade

The wind will be of my screams

Trying so hard to tell them that they shouldn't be as careless as I

Lightning flashes to show my eyes

Anger and frustration filling the sky

Yet, in the end they will never learn

No matter what they won't listen

They'll be just as foolish as I was

I know just how much they'll regret their actions

Soon they'll be able to see others like I am

Crying and alone

Seeing the ground redden and their limbs scattered around

Even now I can still feel myself falling

It reminds me how all I want to say is I'm sorry

I love you

Please forgive me

I thought that I was just going to have a little fun tonight

I didn't expect to die...

Just make sure the next person I see ending up like me

Isn't you