"Lies"

when the truth is to hard to admit we lie

“Lies”

St.Fugaz

You were always by my side

Then you committed suicide

You said that you loved me but I know you lied

I know because you didn’t even say good bye

Because you just left… left me alone to cry

To wonder why…

Why the hell didn’t you say you wanted to die

Why didn’t you give me any signs

Why didn’t you talk to me when you...you…

I can’t even fish the sentence with a dry eye

You were my best friend…

I pray for God to let you descend

I wish for my feelings to subside

But I can’t deal with the fact you died

I feel like depression has become my bride

I feel like I am die'in on my insides

I try to push it away

I don’t understand why I was the one to survive

When you have so much more to live for then I

Now my noose I have eyed

Because I know I will see you on the other side

Unless that to was a lie...

Author's Note

Sometimes you just can't except what happened so you lie to yourself