Drowning

about how I feel

I flirt with death on a regular basis.

I choose to scratch another tally mark into my skin

And, I close my eyes and I see nothing but sadness and fear.

I dream about jumping off a bridge.

Not being able to breathe.

When I was drowning that was when I could finally breathe.

I dream of getting hit by a train.

How it feels to be hit and run over.

Flat; Pancake

I've run out of room

The cuts, they get deeper and pretty soon  will turn into gashes.

I'm lost in a a world, a body, a mind destined to make me kill myself.

Kill me with hostile rejections of my own being.

I'm not here to entertain, but to show everyone I'm weak.

Nah, f**k that. 

I'll stick to cutting in secret.

For the record, I love these feelings anyway.

Pain, lonlieness, alone, abandonment...

And you know what?

It doesn't hurt because it's all i've ever felt and will ever feel.

Don't worry, wouldn't want you to strain your personality.

I want to drown because, i'm suffocating and I want to die.

I'm drowning and you don't even see it..

Reviews

[Skylar]

Ive never related to someones poetry so much before....thats f'ing beautiful

[Haley Wilson]

Wow. This hits really hard. I hope things get better for you though. You deserve happiness. c: