Yesterday Was Just A Little Too Much For Me

Yesterday was a little too much for me,

I could hardly get through the day, honestly.

As difficult as it has been the last 9 years,

was worse yesterday trying to hold back the tears.

It's the day after Mother's Day, yet I feel the same

you know, for many years I took all of the blame.

I used to think that I was a terrible kid, probably the worst

come to find out it was yourself causing you all the hurt.

Mom, if only there was a way I could speak with you now,

if you could see the woman I've become, you'd probably say, "Wow!"

I'll have to admit, I struggle from time to time,

if I told you I was okay, you best believe I'd be lyin'.

I had the day off from work, luckily for me,

I wouldn't have gotten through it, truthfully.

It's hard enough getting through just a normal afternoon

didn't need the stress of being surrounded by those goons.

I spent a few hours down with Grandma yesterday,

she broke down and cried to me, missing you and J.

Seeing her cry caused me to shed a few tears, too

I hope you know just how terribly we miss you.

Yesterday was just a little too much for me,

hoping, wherever you are, you can look at me and see

that it hasn't gotten any easier in these 9 long years

I still struggle to contain the flow of my tears.