My Birthday

Today was supposed to be a good day
But once again I was led astray

One year older,  one year wiser
Sadly one more day I'm not beside her

Another year filled with love and promise
Another woman left dishonest

Happy days long gone, only memories remain
Added to my heart, yet another stain

So broken and disgusted with where I am
Belief true love is just a sham

Tired of hurting so deep inside
Tired of all the pain you provide

Bills and being alive the only reasons I have to live
You were the only one I wanted to be with

Pathetic excuses to continue this agony
Only memories remain of what you meant to me

Life has to have more meaning than before
There has to be much more in store

Why even be born into this world if you're entire existence was meant to be subjected to anguish
Isn't love supposed to be the international language

What a cruel joke to be included in
When will it stop and forever begin

No idea how I haven't given up but always so close
This is just how my life goes
 
Wishing I could just receive that last little push so I can let go and fall
As with me, just thrown away heart and all

I have no drive, no willingness to keep going
No reason to pretend or keep showing

Praying for relief I just want my pain to go away
Today was supposed to be a good day.