Autumn Years / Winter's Fears

I love that half of the year.

Emotions are useless
Stuck inside your head
Like spoon-feeding corpses
While you're starving to death
But the way that you see me
Is like a face in the night
The sun burning brightly
Is the moon's only light

I climbed to the treetops
Dove into the sea
Sunk straight to the bottom
Where the sun couldn't reach
Lay down and drown with me
Wish the days were all nights
I'll pretend that I love you
While the sun's still in sight

Cold's the only feeling I feel
Cold's the only feeling that's real
But cold's not a feeling at all
Cold's just a reason or season to fall


Cold is falling
Winter's here
The gray above us
Feels so near
Minds are loaded
Mouths are clear
So, I say "Where'll I be"
"This time next year"

Watching ghosts
Headed down the road
Mouths are moving
They're talking real slow
Time has forgot 'em
The clocks are all wrong
Whispers of sorrow
The sounds if a song

I don't know nothing of what I'm doing here today
But I know what I've done to take away the pain
People lying in the gutter, all their dreams cast aside
With each word I utter, "I'll bet they all were lies"

Please kill me fast
"You're already dead"
Good feelings won't last
"It's all in your head"
Flora quits growing
"The sun is too bright"
When fauna's in bed
"Awake half the night"
Seeds don't stop sewing
"The rain'll just drown them"
They move faster instead
"They're already dead"

Author's Note

Life is hard, so many wrongings