Door Mat Me

You know what its not like you to turn on the ones you love so often well okay maybe a few

but  it has never been me that you see as out to get you

I am sorry that you do not get things your way today lets act like a baby okay 

 

I knew I should have taken my business to a different place

 

 I should have known that mixing business with family was never a good idea

 Why do I never listen to my husband when he clearly tries to warn me about such things 

 

I guess that is the consequence I receive for thinking that I could help make a small difference for you with the odds stacked against me 

 what you expressed to me to be a deep need at that time 

almost desperately humbled me 

All I wanted to do is help because if you mention something its going to matter to me 

But you knew that about me now im really thinking was this a part of your plan to lure me in your web that you were weaving 

 Well congrats you ORB WEAVER  You Got Me !

  ofcourse I kneeled and  chose you VALIENTLY  to handle my bidding and deep personal needs

I always felt I could confide in and trust you more than anybody 

 

I gotta say though for real im not surprised after all a snake sheds many skins just like a wolf sheds many coats 

 how dare you cause me to regret it and feel as if im at fault for things going wrongly 

you were supposed to maintain your side of the agreement its not fair to place all the weight on me I can only ever do My Part 

not yours too I should have known you would swindle me just so that your life could be more comfortable for you 

This was done to help each other not that I expect anything from you freely im well equipped to pay my way about things I vow to do 

I just needed a little more time to make things right by you and your stupid company too

And then you send me a notice in the mail saying that you are filing me as delinquent and overdue 

just 1 more week extended is all I needed from you 

never have I asked anything of you without being able to perform what I said I would do 

Im a woman of my word you know that to be true 

I think you are just being a she devil to me because somebody else hurt you 

 

you have covered everyone else financially who has done you wrongly and treated you like dirt 

oh how they were undeserving too

 But then there is me the one who has always been there for you and fought for you when everyone else rose against you

 it was I who stood fearful and brave as I could be 

taking all  the hits they could dish out for me fighting for you

 And now im in need and you cant be there for me too 

I got 3 words for you ....

GOD BLESS YOU ! God is no respector of persons if you treat one this way and one that way 

nobody is going to do business with you but dont get me wrong I cant speak for everyone that you swoon 

But as for me 

After today there will be no more Door Mat Me 

im not falling for anything 

And as for obedience to my husband 

Im done being controlling

its time to submit fully 

even if it did take the hard way for me to listen 

Im totally submitting 

I guess this is what it takes for a hard head like me who dont listen 

well that's quickly changing I promise you I pinky promise and kiss it up to God Im through with all of you 

Everyone is now going to hate me 

But im done fighting for you with my husband 

its time I let my husband fight for me against all of you 

Im done  letting you try to get over on me just because im tenderhearted and seen as an easy target for you to gain from 

One thing is for certain there will be no more favors from 

Door Mat Me 

This chick has finally learned her lesson 

throwing up hands in husband surrender 

You win Teddy Bear 

I'm done being a problem solver