Free As A Bird

 

As Free As A Bird

I’m a free bird,

No longer am I going to be tied by the chains of my family.

Now I’m alone,

And with that, I’m quite fine.

 

I was always told I was a free spirit.

As free as the wild fire horse.

The one in the stories that my grandmother told me.

And now, I am for sure, just as she told me.

 

Now I will be able to live without dying,

And I feel more alive than ever.

I know that something in my life is missing,

But right now, I won’t worry about it.

 

I have a wonderful friend

And I’ll have a wonderful son.

Then I will have a husband fine,

And my life will probably be complete.

 

I’m finished with the gangs,

My knives have been put to sleep.

Now it’s time to not think about me,

But I’m going to think about everyone I love.

 

For some reason, the world seems brighter,

The sadness seems happier,

And the unbelievable seems like you can believe anything.

This is the way I like it.

 

Sometimes I wonder and think.

Do I regret anything?

Dating Jake,

Breaking up with Shawn?

 

Going through with having my child?

Being alone with no one?

Having the background I do?

Being selfish all my life?

 

Sometimes I do.

I do regret some of those.

But others I do not,

And I’ll tell you what’s true.

 

I regret dating Jake,

More then you know.

He’s a waste of Destiny’s breath,

That’s all I can really say.

 

Sometimes I regret breaking up with Shawn,

But then I have visions,

And I know.

If I work hard enough, maybe I’ll get him back.

 

Having my child is the hardest thing,

And I’m still not sure I can do it.

But I know I’ll have my friend near me,

Then I might be able to.

 

Being alone is the easiest for me.

There is nothing I’d be able to do better.

I was born alone,

And I know that’s how I’ll die.

 

My background is the worst about me,

Because it can reflect,

But only if I let it.

Therefore, I will no longer let it control my life.

 

Being selfish was my fault,

But that’s come to an end.

I have other things and people to worry about,

And that’s clear to me now.

 

Well, I know what’s to come,

And for some I can’t wait.

But others can take their time,

Because that’s what I want.

 

All the rest I want is very simple.

I don’t want anything fancy,

Just a nice husband, a nice house,

And my son.

 

That’s all I ask,

All I want.

That’s all I’ll get,

And maybe a bit more.