Anxiety: What It Feels Like

I have social anxiety and it was due to a rough time in high school, i hope to raise awareness about anxiety that anxiety can really kill someone.

Anxiety

It’s not a sickness

Some people define it as a disorder

Me? I don’t think so

I think anxiety is a natural response to tragic things that happen in our life 

Death, separation, betrayal, mockery

And other things

You can’t just.. stop it

It happens by itself

The pain of not knowing what others think of you

And the pain of knowing what they’re thinking

It burns

It just burns and burns like a never ending fire

You see their eyes looking at you

Judging you, mocking you, undressing you, & raping you

Your chest seems to emit this fire and it feels like you can’t breathe 

You’re trapped in a burning house

But

There are no firemen, no bystanders helping

You’re just.. there

Alone

And when people come they'd laugh and say, "weak" "dramatic" "psychotic" 

You'd come to agree with what they're saying

You say yes to everything they say and no when they are expecting you to 

A human with no soul

A human like a burning house crumbling and crumbling

You smile when you see people

But you cry when they leave

You’re afraid to call out to them

To just scream and shout and beg for help

You’re afraid

And your body starts shaking with fear

Mixed with cold sweat seeping out your pores

You can’t breathe

You can’t think

You just want to end it

Extinguish the fire once and for all

You just want peace

And your mind says end it

And your body says it too

I’m a failure

I’m a disgrace

I’m.. no one

No one needs me

And when you thought you've extinguished the flames in the burning house 

Realty kicks in laughing at you

"Baby, you’re not done." 

Author's Note

Please give honest reviews! i'm still a newbie at poem making so I need guidance.

Reviews

[KT-B]

Hi, I enjoyed your poem you write well. I can totally relate to this poem as I also suffer anxiety. I have just finished a book by Paul Davis called A Life At Last if you can get a hold of a copy, it certainly helped me. Also the adult colouring in, mindfulness books helped me stop thinking at times... wishing all the best - keep up the writing you have a gift.

[Tannya]

Wow, thank you so much! Books have always been my escape from reality and I'll definitely look up the book you're suggesting!

[duff]

It's unreal how anxiety can make you feel. It mimics different things. Frenetic thoughts and control beyond capture. I really like these lines.
"Realty kicks in laughing at you
Baby, you're not done."

[Tannya]

Thank you so much! Yeah, dealing with anxiety is very hard, writing is sort of my way to escape it.

[duff]

Absolutely! I couldn't agree more